7 Weeks 5 Days
I will be honest, despite taking roughly a billion pregnancy tests, I was most definitely in denial. I tried walking round Kiddicare and Mothercare, two HUGE baby shops, but I just… I duno, it didn’t sink in.
I have spent at least the last month in shock and denial. Not daring to get excited, or believe it is true.
I guess the doctors had drummed in the negativity so much, I forgot that I could actually be pregnant.
Last night, sure set me straight.
We had our first scan. An early pregnancy and dating scan. I could just about make out the head, you can’t in the photo but you could on the screen. But more mind blowing, you could see the heart beat.
The image of last night is so clear, sat in this dark relaxing room screen in front of me, nerves coursing through my body…
I watched as he prodded my bloated belly and up on the screen came this tiny little splodge… with an even tinier beating heart. I stared shell shocked, as the wife bounced around her seat saying
“OH MY GOD, THERES A HEART BEAT, LOOK A HEART BEAT!!!”
My whole world halted, the wifes voice became a muffled cheer as I stared shell shocked at a beating heart. That moment felt like a life time, and then a huge wave of shock punched me in the chest, and I broke down and cried.
Well it explains the throwing up… which is all the time!