Month: August 2012

A spot of good news!

A brief post for now, as I am busy creating two wedding cakes for our wedding which is now just 9 days and 18 hours away!

Anyway the point of the post, I had a spot of good news today, the flash fiction I wrote a couple of weeks ago… called Eden. Well I thought on the off chance I would submit it to a flash fiction website, on the off chance it might be good enough to be published. WELL to my utter shock they published it today!!

 

http://www.flash-fiction-world.com/eden.html 

 

Happy 🙂

Sacha’s Emporium of Goals

I have just about recovered from my hen do last weekend. Which was might I add, one of the best weekends I have ever had. The drunken debauchery was astounding! the quantity of alcohol drunk, vile. It was truly an epic weekend and has put me in a much better frame of mind. I can officially say that I am excited about the impending wedding which is now less than two weeks away. (Despite having several Hulk rage like moments because of work and my family)

With a kind of realisation that life’s too short, and a whole new section of my life is starting. There are a lot of things I would like to do. So like many before me, and many after, I decided to write a bucket list. Except that it isn’t a list. I don’t like lists, you can throw them away. So I decided to write a bucket full of goals, that I will pick and choose from until I complete them all, even if it takes my whole life! This is moveable feast, that will get added to and edited. Enjoy…

 

1. SIX PACK SACH

Ok, so this might be a long way off at the moment, but it’s guna happen! I just changed gyms and I am a little chunky but not obese. I have decided that due to multiple injuries from running that my body was not designed for running, but for building muscle, which I do easily. So I have booked a personal training induction, and have brought some body building books. OK I know I sound like Bridget Jones and her Man book case throwing out one lot of self help and in with another load, but seriously. I am making this my first goal, and I am giving myself a year to complete it. Believe me I am under no disillusion about how hard this is going to be I am a self confessed chocolate addict.

 

2. MASTER OF ONE

I am the original jack of all trades, I can take my hand to anything and be ok at it, sometimes even good. But never great. I am master of absolutely nothing. So I want to become really good at just one thing, I want to be exceptional at something. As yet, I dont know what that thing is, but I will work on it.

 

3. 2 BOOKS 2 YEARS

I have two books planned. Well one three quarters planned and another part planned. Two completely different genres but both need to be written. I will give myself a year to complete each one, but those years wont start until I have finished my dissertation in September 2013. Also, I want to get one of them published.

 

4. SEVEN SEVERAL WONDERS

Ok a traditional bucket list item. I not only want to see the seven wonders of the world but do several other things too. I want to spend several months travelling Asia in particular Japan and China, as I am fascinated with their culture and heritage. I have a whole plan of where I want to go in China mapped out already, and have done for about 6 years! I have already trekked up to Mt Everest Base Camp, but I would like to climb a few other mountains and possibly summit some of the more realistic ones, see the world, the northern lights, etc etc.

 

5. SAVVY SACH

ok so this one is a little shallow, but I have never felt happy with my wardrobe, and I have never had enough money to do something about it. With a fat pay rise at the end of my grad scheme on the horizon, I am going to treat myself to a ridiculously large wardrobe that will make me happy and comfortable. I think some of this is to do with the fact I am not happy with my weight. See goal 1!!

 

6. HOUSEPROUD

Buy/own a house.

 

7. GET RICH OR DIE TRYING

Refer to previous blog about becoming a millionaire!

 

8. MINI ME

Produce an off sprung….

 

9. GROW A PAIR

I have a tattoo designed, have done for a while, I need to grow a pair and go get it done already!


UGH. I have just gone back and re read this, as I had stalled momentarily, and  as I read, I was alarmed to find that they are all so boring and bog standard. I need to get a grip. I like to think of myself as a wild child. BUT In trying to write a comprehensive, fun list of things to do in my life, and I have written the most boring list ever. I need to try again.

 

I’ll be back with a much BETTER more interesting list.

Eden- Flash Fiction by Sacha Black

I am watching my life through Eden’s eyes.

I am at his mercy.

My glass was always half empty, so I didn’t really notice it becoming less and less full. Eden didn’t arrive with some grandeur entrance, he snuck quietly into my life and changed everything. But nothing was sudden, and I always thought it would be.

I will never see the world through the naive eyes I used to have. Those eyes are gone. They were taken from me. Stolen. He stole them. Eden selfishly took them for himself; replacing them with his old broken ones. The tragedy is, I didn’t notice. Not until I was already looking through his battered eyes.

Until I met Eden, I didn’t actually understand the concept of numb. To really feel nothing.

‘Nothing’, is like infinity.

You can’t conceptualize infinity, and you can’t really imagine ‘nothing’ either. But, I feel nothing. No happiness, no sadness, no pain. Eden took it all away, piece-by-piece. Now I watch my life play out through his eyes.

My life is Eden’s phantom limb. I see it, but it isn’t really there. I used to feel it, but now there’s nothing.

All I can do is look through Eden’s window whilst he torments me. Makes me watch whole days pass by, actions, movements, people. Still I feel nothing. I look at my life, like a leg submerged in water, the ripples make it seem detached, disjointed somehow.

Every day he tears another piece of my soul off, ripping it apart and letting it crumble into ashes.

Eden was my dirty little secret. I was ashamed of him, because I was strong. I was meant to be unbreakable.

But he broke me so easily. I am weak. Useless.

I don’t remember how we met, but now I fight him every day. I beg him to leave, plead with him; and when he doesn’t I punish myself for ever meeting him.

I don’t want him in my life any more, but I am trapped. I am only a phantom limb.

By Sacha Black.

Eden is my depression.

Q&A

I LOVE games like this, and after a pretty shitty day to find that I had been tagged in this Q&A game by DystopiConvert, cheered me right up :D.

 

The game involves answering a group of questions and then formulating yours, and passing them along….

The rules are as follows:

1.  You must post the rules.

2.  Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.

3.  Create eleven new questions to ask the people you’ve tagged.

4.  Tag eleven people with a link to your post.

5.  Let them know they’ve been tagged.

 

So the questions I was asked and my responses…

 

1. If you found out you were going to die tomorrow what are the three things you would do today?

Make love for a seriously large part of the day, visit my mother, and lastly make sure I saw all the people I loved.

2. Name three things that make you happy

Money, Sex, Writing (not in that order)

Money gives you the ability to have quality time with your loved ones doing fun things, Sex… is well Sex!! and lastly I was born to tell stories, I just need to focus, and not let life get in the way!! Plus it makes me very happy.

3. If you could go back to the past and change one thing, what would you change and why?

Dont like regrets. If you change one thing then you wouldn’t be the you, you are today. I would be someone else, living another life. But, for the purpose of this, I think, I would do it all again, only BIGGER, BADDER, and MESSIER hahahahah

 

4. Beer or wine?

Wine darling, every time! Rose to be precise. Or tequila!!!! Not that, that was an option!!

 

5. What is the best book you have read this year and why?

eek. Ok I am guna cheat, the best book I read in the last two years was the day of the tryffids by john wyndham because it changed my view on life.

But the best book I have read this year was a little indy book called

‘A disturbed girls guide to curing boredom’ by James Howell, who has just released his second novel, that I still need to read.

6. Name the song you have listened to the most this week?

ERM…. not sure either the Mash up song of Oasis and greenday – wonderwall and  boulevard.

Or the gemini remix of Ed Sheeran’s You need me, I don’t need you.

7. If you had the power to change the world in one way, what would you do and why?

I would cure depression. It’s a vile, disgusting beast and a silent killer. Actualy writing a piece of flash fiction on it.

That or I would make chocolate calorie free!!!! hahahaha Oh and good for your health!!!!!!

8. What is the craziest thing you have ever done?

flew to the other side of the world (california) and then took an 11 hour bus ride to hollywood just to meet the fling of the moment. Ah well, thrill of the chase an all that!!

That, or climbing two thirds of the way up Mt Everest…. Got to base camp, that was pretty mental!!

9. Name one icon you admire and why

Hmmm… I dont really idolise people so this is a hard one. My great Aunt (RIP) was my hero. but someone famous…

10. If you could go to one place before you die, where would it be?

China… I need to get a bit of China and Japan in my life, got a two month travelling trip already planned out.

11. Home boy/girl or party animal?

P>A>R>T>Y             A>N>I>M>A>L

All the way. No question.

 

OK, My questions:

1. What book has had the most influence on you, e.g did it change your perspective on life, touch you emotionally, leave you traumatised etc etc.

2. Tell me in a paragraph or less about the ‘one that got away’ The person you loved and it didn’t work…

3. If someone wrote a biography about your life, what would it be called, and why?

4. What was the last thing that made you cry (good or bad)?

5. What one thing pushes your buttons and makes you mad without fail?

6. Would you rather have super strength, or super intelligence?

7. What three words would you use to describe yourself?

8. You can only eat one meal for the rest of your life, and you wont have any ill health side effects… what is it?

9.  Who or what inspires you?

10. What couldn’t you live without?

11. What was your best night out ever??

Can’t wait to see some of the answers to this….!!

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